I wish I had someone to take me out of the house. I’m so tired of being told that I am the problem when I complain about something my brother has done. He is the one breaking the rules here. What is wrong about telling her? I just want it all to stop…

I went to bed late last night and had a dream about him stealing from me this morning. I woke up to loud music and people in the house that shouldn’t be in the house… He was laughing like a god damn moron high off his ass… It was 10 in the god damn morning… I don’t need that not after babysitting so long last night. I’m tired and I need my sleep, but now I can’t even do that…

I wish that someone would help me… I really really really need help… I’m so stressed in this situation that it is effecting my health…. I can not deal with that asshole half brother anymore… And here he is yelling outside of my room telling me that he is so much better than me?… WTF I don’t do fucking drugs.. Hell I don’t even drink… I don’t care how successful he thinks he. He is not going to make me feel bad by trying to rub it in my face.. He cant respect his family or this house… He gets angry and does nothing but yell obscenities or break things… I don’t give a fuck about how many people watch him on Facebook. Who the fuck gives a damn about Facebook? o_O; It’s not like they have to put up with him and his friends… I’m sure they would love for him to get drunk off your ass and throw up in their homes. Why doesn’t he go live with them? Why the fuck does he have to make my life a living hell? I hate him so much… We can’t even make him leave because he can break into the house… I wish I had some sort of escape from all this…

"No matter how good you are at something, there is always going to be about a million people better than you.”

 I fucking hate this quote or anything similar to it. WTF kind of message is this? Sure we don’t want a world full of special snowflakes, but do we also want a world where people don’t aim high?

 
Would you look at a child’s work and tell them “Well it’s good, but the kid next to you did a much better job.”? Would that in turn cause said child to become engulfed in the flames of motivation or would it cause them to want to crawl into a hole? I believe that there are more effective forms of motivation. Help and support for example are certainly much more effective.

I think every day I hate my half brother more and more…

Today I was woken up to "Don’t fucking talk to me when I’m sleeping!". What a really eloquent way to speak to ones mother… Has he somehow convinced himself that he was raised in some stereotypical ghetto? Even people in the ghetto have better manners than him…

That was how my day began… Now I hear them arguing in the BG. Apparently he destroyed a nice frying pan that was a gift from our neighbor. He’s not showing any remorse what so ever… Saying stuff like “It doesn’t matter. It’s just a fucking pan.”. It’s always good to know that pans can be used for fucking… -_- He’s now blaming her for not having any other clean pans for him to use. Right because apparently he doesn’t know how to wash dishes? They are most likely dirty because of him anyway… I’m not hearing any offers to replace it or anything. Hell I can hardly understand what he is saying when he uses the F word every sentence..

All this and apparently I am the one getting kicked out? This logic really baffles me…

*sighs* So I’m being forced out of my house now… She doesn’t think that there is a way to resolve this problem in a civil manor. So what does she do kick him out? Nope! It’s me! I’m the problem… I don’t understand… I don’t want to leave home… I’m not an interdependent person… Just thinking about yesterday really makes things worse… I felt like a caged animal locked up in my room without power… It’s hardly an equal punishment to me cutting off his internet… He still has access to the outside world. I don’t…

Another problem is that I don’t know what to do with my cat. I can’t leave her here… They would throw her outside… ;_; I don’t know what to do… I feel so very upset.. I don’t want to give her away… I still regret being forced to give Varick away.

I think I’ve really reached the end of my rope with my family. I just want my feelings to be taken into consideration. I want the problems to be discussed and worked out, but nobody else wants to even make an attempt at coming to a peaceful agreement.

What I hate most is that I am made out to be the one in the wrong… Of course if my complaints go on deaf ears I am going to act out… How else am I going to get anyone’s attention?

Let me go ahead and explain a few of the things that are bothering me. Perhaps I can get a second opinion on this situation.

I have an idiot half brother who is kind of a bastard to his mother and myself. He’s addicted to drugs… He has no regard for our mental and physical well being. This is made clear by his constant rule breaking. He will leave the garage open until unsightly hours. He will fill the house up with his friends every god damn day… This happens even when his mother is not here. This really makes me feel uneasy. People on drugs act on impulses… They could do all kinds of things like steal, break things, or even beat the shit out of me just for looking at them wrong… Another thing I have against them being here is they eat all our food… Since this piece of shit doesn’t pay for anything so he obviously does not care… It’s like his sense of entitlement is 1,000,000 times above average…

But I am the one in the wrong when I complain? I certainly don’t go around breaking doors when I don’t get my way… Oh and by the way, he did not pay for the door he broke… Hell, he doesn’t pay for anything… He’s an adult… He should pay for his GED, drivers license, his contact lenses, and any other necessity, but nooo… All the money that he made while cutting grass probably went to weed and his band… Who knows maybe he even spent it on a few whores… Oh and get this… He wants her to buy him a truck? LOL God that entitlement is phenomenal.

haha You can never criticize his actions though… His best insult is to call you “childish” or throw in some random profanity. This guy is real rubbish at insults… At least put some thought into coming up with something relevant to the person at hand… You can’t really demean me by calling me childish because I don’t consider it an insult. Most children are not as innocently ignorant as the world would like to believe anyway…

So what have I done to act out you might ask? I had warned him earlier not to fill the house with people, but what does he do he disregards this.. That had already angered me… So he fills the house with his friends AGAIN. He also did not inform any of his friends about the broken toilet. This has lead to it running water continusly for hours on end many times. I went to fix it and obviously complained. He told me to stop making noise as I reached my hand into the tank to fix a problem that he should have given a damn about… But he obviously didn’t… I outright told him right then and there that he doesn’t care because he doesn’t pay the bills and he agreed with me… =_=” He said this in front of a group of his friends as if it was nothing… So obviously I got mad and told my mother to tell them to go home… But I’m the bad guy? I’m the bad guy for getting fed up with this? Oh and she hit me right then and there. o_O; Right that’s real nice… You’re more worried about me causing a scene in front of some strangers than you are with my happiness…

Since this time I decided that one of my ways to combat this is to kill the internet to the television whenever he has company. This prevents him from inviting people over to watch Netflix for hours on end.

What is my mother’s reaction? Even though we don’t have the money for this she said she would pay for a separate internet connection for her and him to use. LOL Good luck you two… You’ll have to buy a router as well you know… You’ll also have to configure said router so that strangers won’t use up all the bandwidth…

So as you can see, I’m done… I’m oh so very done…. She’d rather side with the guy who says hurtful things to her? Like that all the effort she puts into working in cleaning houses is stupid. I don’t see him working to support us… Hell she even tried to get him a job before, but he was too fucking lazy… What else has he done? Well he did his friends that the food she made for us is disgusting. Well if our food is disgusting don’t eat it? I certainly enjoyed it and I wouldn’t have minded an extra bowl.

Sorry I kind of got a little emotional towards the end of this… I just don’t know what to do… They have turned down my group therapy idea.. I feel like I am the only one fighting for some change.


Am I the only one who enjoys K 100% more when Shiro and the gang are not the main focus? Their scenes feel so forced and seem to lack a sense of sincerity. It really has bothered me for quite a while now… The show should have just focused on HOMRA the red clan. Shiro, Kuroh, and Neko are more suited to be side characters. Well that’s my opinion anyway.

Why do people do this on here? They post about something that they think is awesome, but do not give you the title? There may be a slim chance that some kind soul will point it out to you if you ask, but that wouldn’t even be necessary if the OP had done so in the first place.

If you really love something and you want the word to get out about it then make sure that you tell people what it is. Don’t make us go through roundabout ways to gather information.

You know what I hate? I hate it when I am told to do some set task/chore without instructions. What makes it worse is having the person who gave you said task looming overhead like a vulture… Yep, you know damn well that they are just waiting for you to mess up just so that they can complain… Complain and point out just how much better of a job they could have done themselves. >_< Just do it yourself if you don’t want to give instructions in the first place… It should be obvious that a beginner won’t be perfect. Sometimes I feel like they just want to boost their own ego.